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Thursday, 04 June 2009

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Hook Me Up
By The Veronicas
Untouched
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CHA-ching!

FUCK
yesssssss

I'm so damn pleased with myself right now, it's fucking ridiculous.

Okay, update one.

I hooked up with Tim.

*victory dance*

Damn straight.

Update two.

My daddy & my lil' bro are supposed to be coming out here next Wednesday. Daddy's gonna buy me a car ~yessssa!~ and he might be moving out here permanently. Andy man is gonna be staying for a few weeks & then my Momma is coming out and we might all be going to New York together for a little vaca.

Life is good as of now.

Muy Bueno

Saturday, 30 May 2009

Blah-blah-bleh..

I feel yucky today.

Not sick yucky, but just bummedoutandboredneedtodosomethingfun yucky.
Only problem is there's only one thing I want for a distraction, and it's just not happening right now.

Take a guess, I bet you can figure out what I want.

Wednesday, 20 May 2009

Drunk Texting.

Which, by the way, is a very bad idea.

Usually.

So last night I had a few beers, since I was trying to finish off my last six-pack. I usually won't get all hammered unless I get past the four-beer mark.. That's about when they start tasting reeeeeally good and I get reeeeeally thirsty, if ya know what I mean.. But I also hadn't really eaten anything the whole day.

(I didn't eat nothing, I just only had an english muffin with peanut butter in the AM and then a kiwi/orange/banana deal around 1:30 and started drinking around 9 while I was making myself a dinner that I ended up only picking at.)

So I sent the usual dorky text to Tim..
And I had to tell Amy & Wilson about how my cat ate a cheeseburger yesterday morning, of course.
(she stole the left-overs from dinner the night before and we found what was left on the floor later)
They're the first people I thought of when I made the connection to that joke..
Amy introduced me to the site, and I used to joke about it with Wilson.

But yeah, I ended up getting into a pretty deep conversation with Sheila.
I have to leave some parts out, 'cause they refer to things that are just between us, but here it is for the most part.. I'm gonna skip most of the beginning and just go right to the part that's been on my mind all day.

Me - "Lol.. Sorry, my phone died, >.<
Grr. I've had a few beers and typing is hard. >.o"

Sheila - "Who got you the drinks?"

Me -"Hehehe, matt bought me a six pack of sam adams light a few days ago and I'm just finishing it off right now..:P
I'm only having a few, but I haven't eaten anything since about 1:30 and it's 9:30 right now.. so yeah, it's all going to my head, lol. :P"

Sheila - "Lol Envy Okay hope you have fun. You with the man now?"

Me - "Lol, the man? No, I wish! I'm just hangiong out at home.. :P"

Sheila - "Well he is a man right? Not a boy. :D"

Me - "Lol, yesssss thank god! I got sick of Brad talking about being a man.. and acting like a boy! >.<"

Sheila - "Lol. Yeah I know what you mean. :D"

Me - "From experience? :P"

Sheila - "Kinda living it lol.

Me - "Lol, yeah thats for sure.. XP
I'm sorry, I usually try not to give you too much shit about him, but I'm kinda buzzed so I don't really feel the need to be as nice right now.. I love you and just want whats best for you sheila! <3"

Sheila - "Thanx girlie. I love you a lot! Miss you more than you know. Wish we could be hanging out right now.. Drinking together. It would be fun. :D"

Me - "Hell yeah! And I would feel comfortable enough to actually get drunk.. not just super buzzed!
I miss you tons sheils, I wish we could hang out in your new apt together, that would be the shit! We could get crazy drunk and not even have to worry about driving wherever to go to sleep!
Lol, I really miss you tho, nothing can replace my best friend. :("

Sheila - "Blah.. That txt made me cry chicka. :) I hate feeling like Im missing out on life with you. We should be having the best times of our life together!"

Me - "We should! Get your ass out here asap girl! I could cry too.. I wish you were with me, going on road trips & being stupid & young together! I want to see the world with you chica, africa, europe, south america, everywhere! Egypt, portugal, brazil, scotland, france, italy, greece, it won't be the same without you.. :("

Sheila - "I know I really fel left out over here. I love marc but I wish I didn't meet him until later in life."

Me - "That' show I felt with *ahem* Andrew. Brad. Richard.
The only way I could be happy was to leave them where they belong -my past. I'm so much happier now that I'm really being true to myself and doing what I want to do, not what I feel like I HAVE to do to be with the one I love. Yes, I loved them all, and yes I did leave them all, but I wouldn't be as happy and fulfilled with myself today if I hadn't sheils. Seriously, this is YOUR life, not his. This is supposed to be about YOU, not him.You're supposed to be doing all the things YOU want to do, not what he wants you to do. I love you, and watching you break off pieces of yourself for his happiness is really killing me girlie. :("

Sheila - "Yeah its killing me too. I'm actually trying to bring myself to do it as much as I love him. I feel that I have to.."

Me - "Just enjoy it while it lasts girlie.. You have a 6 month lease right? Let yourself enjoy it. You should be moving out here with me after that tho. I'll rent a place with you & everything. It's way cheap out here, or we can just move somewhere else. I don't care. I'm getting the travel bug again already & I want my partner in crime with me when I finally do take off."

Sheila - "I know.. Time will tell. Thank you for everything Kaysi. Love you!

Me - "I love you too girl.. I wish I could help you more than just a drunk rant.. I'm sorry it's the best I can do, if I could I'd fly us both to france and start our back-packing trip already.. :("

Sheila - "Just knowing that I have you still in my life means everything. If I had the money I would do the same. Marc would just have to wait. My phone is about to die. :/"

Me - "Lol, & I'm about to crash out.. Night girlie, I love you more than anyone, you're my best friend and that won't EVER change!
(even if you do marry him, I'll still love you and fuck him if he thinks I'm not gonna fly home to be your maid of honor!)

Sheila - "Night chicka! Yes you would be. I've already told him that many times."

Me - "Damn straight! Lol, sorry, still a little buzzed.. :P
Night chica."

Sheila - "Lol. :D"

*sigh*
I miss her. And I wish I had never introduced her & Marc to each other.
Currently
Permission to Land
By The Darkness
I Believe In A Thing Called Love
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48 ways..

To tell if you're from Maui.

1. You have partied in either a cane or pineapple field because house parties are basically nonexistent
2. People chase their shots here, even if it’s with beer
3. The only real keg parties are in Hana
4. People don't use shot glasses
5. If someone doesn’t have their shirt on at a party they are looking to fight
6. Girl fights are cherished not looked down upon
7. You know someone who has been tasered by the cops or heard about it
8. You know there is no such thing as a MIP or MIC, much less an enforced curfew
9. You like lifted trucks
10. You have no idea how to give directions by highway number and because of that tourists think you’re fucking them over
11. You have given someone wrong directions
12. You know who the tourists are and what classifies as a tourists car
13. There is no concept of a fast lane
14. You have been asked if you have electricity
15. You call the entire continental United States “the Mainland”
16. You have been asked if you are Hawaiian even if you’re extremely white
17. You have called someone else haole even if you are white
18. You’ve been asked to speak Hawaiian
19. You think it’s weird when someone tells you they’ve never seen the ocean
20. You know someone who has never seen the snow or been to the Mainland
21. You get irritated when someone pronounces something wrong and laugh at them
22. The legal speed limit doesn’t exceed 55mph
23. People never follow the speed limit
24. You’re used to seeing people dressed in the minimal amount of clothing
25. If you’re a girl, you own a brazilian bikini or smaller
26. Non reggae concerts are extremely rare
27. Clubs don’t have 18 and over nights
28. It’s slippers not flip-flops, soda not pop, shoyu not soy sauce, saimin not ramen
29. If you’re a girl you have owned a pair of black Scott’s or something very similar
30. You know to take your shoes off when going inside someone’s house
31. If you see an abandoned car on the side of the road you know it will either get stolen, stripped down, lit on fire, spray painted, or all of the above
32. You eat spam and know it is served at some restaurants
33. You have eaten seaweed and know there is another name for it
34. You spent most of your childhood barefoot
35. You know what your Hawaiian name is
36. Smoking weed is excepted and very common even in public places
37. You’ve smoked weed with your friend’s mom
38. You can drive around the island in an entire day if you really want to
39. Your hair is naturally highlighted
40. Li hing mui is used to season basically everything even beer
41. You get a ton of leis at graduation or any other special occasion
42. You say yeah at the end of every sentence
43. You honk in the tunnel
44. You know where the sharks hang out
45. There are no trains, snakes, or poison ivy
46. You go to Makena beach on Sundays
47. The grocery store sells liquor even on Sundays
48. You go to Front St. for Halloween

Lol, so true, so true.

I was effing around on Myspace (I know, I know, bad Kaysi!) and stumbled on this.
Reminded me of a few things we were talking about earlier Rosie..

Yeah-ya! I'm so stoked you're coming out here! I can't wait to see you!
Only 4 more days!

Wednesday, 13 May 2009

Currently
Danse Macabre (Anita Blake, Vampire Hunter, Book 14)
By Laurell K. Hamilton
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Umm. Update!

Ha, um, sorry about that last one, kinda sudden ending, huh?

So, baby wasn't born that night. That was just some early labor, but Nicole wasn't having dilating so they sent her home at 1:30 AM.

Baby girl Kendall Nicole Cox was born at 3:07 AM on May 12, 2009
She weighs 7 lbs 7 oz and is 18.5 inches long

She is so beautiful, I'm in love already.

As for that whole Tim rant I was just starting to get into, forget it. I was just feeling waaaay too insecure about myself and was assuming the worst from everyone, especially him. I've come to the conclusion that although he flirts and teases when we text back & forth, he's really shy in person. And he did ask me if I wanted to go to some party thing with his friends a while back, but I was so tired I didn't realize he was hinting at it to see if I wanted to go and ended up kinda blowing him off. TOTALLY on accident! I realized what he had said & what I said back almost immediately after he dropped me back off at home that night.. God I felt like such a dumb, dense, space-cadet!

>.<

I didn't get to that part in my last blog (obviously!) but that whole thing I was saying before was just my major insecurities and all the junk that was going around and around in my head that I just needed to get out already.

Here's some pics of Miss Pumpkin & Miss Kendall..